Morning weight: 133.5 (unchanged)
Still feel very weak. Couldn't bring myself to run or work out (yes I know I gave in to self pity there). Movement was sluggish and I slept on the bus again. Haven't had anything in my mouth yet today though, we'll see what happens later.
If I don't feel any significant improvement or cleansing progress, I am considering ending this sooner. The breaking phase consists of 2 days of fresh orange juice, which I am much more likely to have access to on the weekend, so tomorrow could be my last day.
By 10am (unusually early) I started drinking - I couldn't get myself moving. It helped, but only marginally. I skipped the tea (largely because I didn't have any with me, but I doubt I would be up for it). By lunch time I was done with half my lemonade. As work intensified I started waking up (external stimulation being the energy source) and when a one-hour phone interview was dumped in my lap, I finally became energized to the point where the top of my body warmed up (not so much for the lower half though).
This is something I neglected to mention - for the past 5 days or so I've had a difficult time maintaining normal body temperature, with dominant extremes tending towards being cold. I would occasionally get hot after too much lemonade but that would wear off quickly.
That said - my observations of internal intensity and its effect on my state emphasize just how much of a mental thing my state is. I am just gonna stop making excuses and put in the work. But if I don't feel the need to continue for the full 10 days, I don't need to.
I was away from home this night, and I failed to account for my total inability to produce passive body heat at this stage. I was in a cold room (below 70F) and had only one blanket - completely inadequate for sleep. If I'm conscious I probably can sustain some intensity in these conditions, but my goal was to sleep - and I couldn't. I eventually turned up the heat to 76° and then certain body sections were finally warm. In retrospect, a few extra blankets would have done the trick, but I wasn't thinking clearly. It would still have taken me a while to heat up the bed but it would have become possible.
